@8.33pm.
I figured it would be appropriate to end the year of 2010 with a post. :) And also this post is to welcome 2011, I guess. :) I haven’t blogged frequently in a long while, and I guess I do owe it to myself and lots of people too. This post will be completely unedited and truthful lol, so don’t assume stuff etc. :x
Song atm – Shakugan No Shana – All in Good Time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnZ_5kdzxWo
Was listening to that yesterday too, while writing those cards for all my friends. :)
2010 ain’t a simple year. I thought that there won’t be much changes after 2009, but boy was I wrong. Very wrong haha. Lots of stuff happened, school-wise and in my life. Even right now at this moment, it isn’t completely peaceful and worry-free. But hey, I’m feeling rather peaceful despite the chaos at home. And I’ve survived this entire year, right? :)
Haha got to know lots of new people this year. :) Some of ’em have become really close, and everything was rather unexpected. (Shoutout to Ben here haha.) Didn’t expect you to become a close friend, ever since April this year. And I’ve gotten really close to my entire group of friends. :) More so, this year. :D
I’ve been high/hyper/laughing crazily at times this year. Lots of tears too, though not many people know. Whether I’m alone at home or sometimes in school. I’ve had a rather long crush on someone haha -.- Omg ashamed to admit it sia, but I’ve gotten over it now and I’m glad to say that :x I’ve sometimes wondered what my life is about, and the reason for my existence. But over the course of this year, I’ve understood more about myself and learnt a lot too.
To sum it all up, it has been a rollercoaster ride, a merrygoround, and smooth and rough at times. I’m disappointed with myself though… About my results. But I think I can say I did my best, because I did put in my all this year… But since it’s turned out this way, I’ve nothing more to say. I’ll just continue to work harder. I need to answer to everyone who has high hopes for me.
So much to say… but now as I type this, I don’t really know how to express all my mixed emotions into words. ._> Haha, I’m going to jump to another part now ._. And see if I can return later hahaha.
Anw, I really have to thank God for everything I have in my life. My life itself, for saving me on the 4th day of my birth, for protecting me throughout my 16 years of existence, for protecting me from being run down by cars and saving me from many close shaves with death.
For my family. For my mother, although she can be too controlling and really strict at times, not letting me go out etc, but still I guess she’s worried about me, so yup. And for listening and reassuring me when I overthink about certain stuff. For my father, for being there, for encouraging me when I’m knocked down, for buying me bubble tea and cheering me up when I’m down, for listening to me when I couldn’t find anyone else to talk to. For giving me random hugs, that just break the dam. Like now. >< For my vibrant, cheerful younger sis who put up with me despite the way I treat her sometimes. For picking up the pieces with me whenever chaos happen in the house. For telling me not to cry, whenever I start crying, ‘cuz I just feel so helpless with the way things are going sometimes. I love you all. <3 :)
For my entire group of friends+bffs. Who are so awesome and so amazing that I don’t know what I’ll do without ’em. Disappear maybe, or hide from the world. But thank you PeiSze, Jessica, Shu Qi, Xiaojun, Steph, Yenlin. Thank you for being there. :) Almost everything’s written in the card, but nope, not all I want to say. You all certainly made my school life more colourful :) Thanks for cheering me up when I’m down :D Be there to talk :) And to go crazy over random stuff haha, like Pikachu, anime, bubble tea, over school stuff, mugging O.O and just gathering all together like today ^^ And trying new stuff together hahaha. :D Though we’ll all be in separate classes/schools next year, we still must stay together and go out whenever we’re free ^^ Or go Xiaojun’s house to bake again haha! And spam pics + wade in the swimming pool!!!! :( Take care y’all :p See you guys next year :D MUST PHOTOCOPY EACH OTHER’S TIMETABLES AND COORDINATE TGT AH.
For the new people I’ve known this year, whether rather long ago, or just recently.
To Ben haha. :) Thanks for being there, knocking sense into me with your really sound advice, making me realise that it isn’t only me that have such stuff happen, for listening and for talking ’bout random stuff that cheer me up. :) You better stay happy, take care of yourself, and last long + enjoy your time tgt with that -ahem- of yours! Jy for PCME next year hahaha. I’m freeeeeeeeee from physics :D Don’t think so much too k. :)
To MH chat peepz. :) I think I can never really leave for long/take a long break from chat haha. I think I tried before, but in the end I gave up and went back. You guys are a lively, vibrant, fun and awesome bunch of peepz to talk to :D And I’m really glad I entered the chat on Christmas Day last year haha. Thanks for listening to my sorrows sometimes, and start cheering me up when I’m sad or encounter failure, like the guitar fiasco. >< And yup, lots of fun times haha. Like transforming into a drakon suddenly ._> Courtesy of drakey. Thanks Kath, Brain too for lots of stuff :) And thanks to SG chat peepz, like aLtOr (James), Epicness (Brandon), drakey (Brandon -.-) Etcccccccccccc. :D And ty sharmima, magz, keon, badger, sammie, shak, the list goes on haha. :)
To NTUC proj CIP peepz, Saumun, Qi Zheng, Nicholas, Farhanah, Valentina, Xin Ru and my entire group of friends, etc :) I can’t remember all your names omg sorry >< T_T I’m really glad I decided to go for CIP after I recovered from that guitar incident >< Didn’t go for the first few days, ‘cuz I was still upset oops haha. :x But CIP turned out really fun :) And I found myself looking forward to it each day haha. Crazy wagon-pushing ^^ Re-arranging of books, guiding the parents with their booklists, and omg the carrying of the heavy boxes ._. And the taking of quite a lot of pictures at the end haha :D Glad that we all still have those pics as memories :) Haha, eh PeiSze, Jess, Shuqi, Yenlin, Steph, lets go again next year to help. :}
Omg -.- Exceed 1k words le. >_> I doubt anyone will read this. Or rather complete reading this -.- Nvm, this is for me :D Haha. Actually I think I’m done. Almost, anyway.
Thanking God for the little things in life :) For the everyday happenings and the not so significant stuff that happens, but which still give me strength and hope to carry on :D Anime <3 最近才开始爱上了它!Bubble tea, baking cookies + cake, laughing over random stuff, etc. If I continue, I think this post will never end. :p
Yup, to sum it all up again :p Glad yet sad that 2010 is over. :) Apprehensive + scared, yet kind of excited for JC. -.- Though I think I’m freaking terrified for the starting of school, to be really honest. ._. But still, hope 2011 will be okay and go smoothly haha. :D
Life is simple, I guess. Nothing matters as long as you are happy, and the people around you + the people who you love and care about are healthy and happy too. :)
I’m grateful and I’m blessed. I guess, that’s all I’ve to say hehe. :D
K if you even reach this part right… I commend you. :O So thanks for reading <3 Hope everyone is well and happy + ready for 2011. :)
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P.S. Right. 1370 words and still counting. This post took exactly 1 hour. I’m a bit amazed. o.o