And the last song has been sung. I’m strong enough to turn the page, to close a chapter. A final silent farewell, gratitude mixed in w regret. Will miss you.
It’s time for me to walk away silently. It has gone on long enough. Lots of things have reminded me that I’ve really got to move on and to stop holding on to this friendship, when the other person doesn’t even try anymore. And I’m kind of feeling a bit awkward to say this… but I did fall for you for a little while, even though I knew you were batting for the same team. Thank goodness, I could still pull myself out, with the help of God, my friends who know about this, etc.
Not lying. I’ll miss you a hell lot, you’ve been there for one year, and you did what most people couldn’t do. You broke through all my walls in 2010, and in my darkest moments, you were there. You made me open up, and slowly to the people around me. In short, you kind of saved me when I was drowning. And I’m really grateful for that, I won’t forget what you did. :)
But everything’s different now, you will no longer be the one to save me. I’m going to be my own hero, and depend on God and myself for whatever. You won’t see this, but I’m just hoping that you’ve a good life, good friends, and don’t let people bring you down so easily, treat people more nicely like in the way you treated me. Treat your ex-bf that way please, he still can’t let go of you, he still can’t move on, he still loves you. Let him down easily.
Hopefully, closure for me please. This has gone on for far too long, I was in denial for the past few months. But now, I’m alr more than halfway to moving on though I still get reminded of you by so many little things. You’ve left a far too deep impact on my life. It won’t be easy, but God will help me. :)
And I will help myself.
Lying to myself tryin’a act like I don’t care
The way it’s killing me every time
That you’re not there
Coz I get weak
I’m giving it all away
I know it’s not wise to leave myself so open but
All the rules get broken in your eyes
I give it all up to you
And everything that’s been keeping me together
Brings me to my knees
I get weak
I get weak
And all the walls I’ve been building up
Crack and then break when you’re around
I get weak
Nothing I do to fight it matter now
Goodbye. Take care. I love you, bro.
虽然自己有很多话要说，但这些话可能永远说不出。 