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Choices. Free will. Consequences.

I’m tired. Don’t have too high hopes on me. I’m afraid all of you will be disappointed. And you will.

I can only say one thing: Sometimes, I wish I wasn’t born in Singapore, or even go to DHS. I’m not up to it Lol, to be honest. No offence to both S’pore and DHS. o_o

Yeah, Singapore’s safe, has good education, high tech and all those stuff. But pause for a moment and look closely. Which person is truly happy and can face everything with a smile? Maybe, there are some still, but they’re rather rare. Everyday, when taking the bus or MRT etc, I see people who look exhausted, either after work or school; and all those people look like they need a break, but they can’t get it. Pace of life too fast. Mmm. Heh, maybe sometimes I see the negative side… but I’m sure that there’ll be several good sides too… Just random thoughts spilling out as usual.

Fortunately, (or unfortunately), I think I’ll choose the former; what has happened in life, has happened. God somehow brought me into this world, put me into sunny warm Singapore, into Kinderland, into an all-girls Catholic school (CHIJ) :D, and now DHS. Heh. But I did pray, and in the end… still somehow, I went into DHS, instead of AHS.

Ah well. Life’s just life. (o_o somehow became part of my motto/pet phrase lol.)

Lalala~ I feel better (: Seeeeee, writing ish my form of therapy :D

We are all seemingly insignificant, tiny specks of dust. But yet, God makes us feel significant. He loves all of us, regardless of our imperfections.♥

Yea. (: Choices, free will, consequences. Nanananaaaaa~

LOL .___.”

Heh. If you’ve really read this post and understood at least 75% of it, I commend you. Still need to find all those missing worksheets and refile… meh. And maybe time for sleep, before my overactive brain goes on overdrive again -__- Not like it hasn’t, actually.

Au revoir~ (:

P.S. I’m wondering if people do really read all this o_o It’s actually rather… mmm. Weird? :/ Idk heh. Anw, do leave a comment if you can. :D xP x]

@ 12.51AM.

2010
07/27
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Sleepy ramblings.

Hai. Too tired to talk. So I’m typing. Duh. So hi.

Lol. I’m making no sense O_O I just replied my mum’s question… and it came out in an unintelligible murmur or mutter or whatever o_o

Lalala. I love you, school.  I love you, homework.

Seriously. I just want one day to sleeeeeep. Too bad that’ll never happen. Mood finally crashing down. Heh expected it, but it’s not as bad as I expected, which is kind of good in a way. Sleeping soon. At least tmrw’s  a short day. 4 hours of lessons + recess. (Y) Don’t want homeworkkk.

Need to save $30 out of $47. Rather impossible feat, now that I’m thinking ’bout it. Heh maybe $25 would do.  Lets see.

Genotype is the genetic make-up of an organism while phenotype is the observable characteristics of an organism. Gene locus is the position of a gene on a chromosome. <——- Seriously. Do we need to know all of this? Are they all going to be used when they grow up in our daily activities? -.-‘

Ah whatever. Not making sense. It may not be true. But sometimes, certain stuff we learn in school ain’t going to used… or maybe they will. Who knows.

Lol. This post is titled ‘Ramblings’, ‘cuz I’m half trying to figure out homework and half rambling at different times. Will be posted up when I’m about to sleep.

OH post ’bout msn convo!!! Must remember if I’ve time.

12.46am.
Thankful to God for giving me strength to carry on♥ Through amazing ways and wonderful people. God’s great♥ :D

Thankful to bffs aka dajie and erjie, jess and peisze♥, twitter peepz, friends, random fb comments + statuses, Ben. Without all of you,  我早就崩溃了。Lol. Grazie :D

Heh I think I tmrw go school, then do bah. Now I’m like half unconscious already. Not even making sense of the questions. Packing bag~

Omg. Chem, physics, math, geog. TMRW HAVE CHEM. Get back atmosphere test. GG. ._.’

Ah whatever. What’s done is done… Even if I want to change it, I can’t change it already. Nananana, and oh if my angel reads this, thankyou so much for the spongebob pen! (: Love it ttm :D <3

o.o 12.59am. Lol. Ta-da 1am.

1.06am. Exhausted. Time to sleep. I think when I look back on this seemingly incoherent post tmrw, I’ll blush with shame and feel tempted to delete it or sth. But I won’t >< Heh sleepy ramblings.

ciao~ Night. (:

The lonely wolf howled into the darkness,
the silence of the night.
But unexpectedly, another heart-wrenching howl was its reply..
Coming from the direction of the moon and stars.

You’re not alone. No one ever is.

2010
07/22
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HIIII :D

Sigh. I’ve been having really weird mood swings recently ._. :( UGH. Really extreme. Like from really happy and high to ultra depressed and sad. WTH!? ._.

No mood to do anything. I don’t want to start hw. I don’t want lots of things to happen.

I wish time could stay still sometimes. Or record the happy moments in my life and I can replay and watch them again.

I blame it on this song I’m hearing. Sigh. No mood to blog too. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way.

I hate to feel this way. It’s the worst kind of feeling in the universe. It’s like suddenly all the happiness has been sucked dry completely from your essence and yea, a sense of foreboding. And just no mood.

I’ll return to staring at the wall. Ah, kidding.

Sucks ._. Oh well.

I think we’re better off this way. Although you and me are trying to deny it. Maybe it’s for the best.

2009
12/20
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Innocence, joy, happiness and memories are gifts. Cherish them [:

LOL. 3rd or 4th post for the day? I have no life x.x

Missing people.

Today just feels like any normal day but I don’t think it is. Like just now when I was sitting in the hairdresser salon. (HAHA. I JUST GOOGLED THE TITLE :D) “Shower Me with Your Love” was playing in the background. Is it an oldie? HAHA.

Sigh. I don’t know why. That song just stirred something in me. And I started thinking of the people that I’ve met during the past three years. Just thinking of my encounters with them. Thinking how naive I was. How headstrong and determined last time, to get the things I want.

I seem to have lost my drive now. I feel like a robot even after eoys. Does anyone feel the same? It’s like your life during and before eoys was just: wake up, mug, eat of course and sleep. And then after eoys, for some people, it seems boring and they have nothing interesting to do anymore -hinthint- -coughjessicacough-

Yeah. There’s that. While that song was playing though, I was thinking about a particular person. I don’t know why. I think of D a lot last time, met D in secondary 1 or 2? Yea, in the choir. Coz my parents were singing in the choir at that time. So, me and my sis just tagged along. The whole choir was made up of many people for different ages LOL. D was the conductor. I guessed everyone liked D, coz D was just likeable that way HAHA.

Ugh. This is complicated. I want to try to piece it out nicely, but 1) I’m not exactly sure how to explain it. And 2) I keep wanted to type out the name of D and this can’t happen.

I guess everyone miss certain people always. There are some people that always stay in your memories, no matter how short the encounter. And it’s unforgettable. It’s like that particular memory of that person is deeply carved into the wall of your mind. At certain times, it will suddenly be pushed to the front and all the memories come flooding back.

I miss a lot of people now. My childhood friends, my pri school friends, beltrix. Even my fierce pri school teachers. Too many to list.

I wish that everything will be alright in my life. I wish that everything will be alright in the world. I wish there won’t be so many poor helpless people in the world.

I know I’m lucky to be living the life I live now. But sometimes maybe things seem easier if this society wasn’t so advanced. Prejudiced. Hate. Fear. Power. Money. Position.

Are these that important? Apparently, they are, for certain people.

I wonder if these thoughts and issues will ever stop clouding my mind and engulfing my happiness.

I just want to be happy. It’s that simple, yeah :D

Innocence, joy, happiness and memories are gifts. Cherish them [:

I’ve spoken too much. Oops O: HAHA. Sigh, that’s the problem. I can’t really talk much here now .___. Since it appears that I’m linked all over the place. It isn’t a bad thing but it’s uhh awkward and embarrassing if people read your thoughts. For me, sometimes O: LOL. Especially this post ugh.

Anyway, I think this post deserves a comment :D THIS IS LONG. 560 WORDS LEH 8)

COMMENT! :D

2009
10/22
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