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Pictures > Words.
I figured words would be redundant and pointless, especially since I’ve ranted too much in the past few posts. Weary. But things and people keep me going. Pictures too on tumblr.
Be strong. I'm tryin' to. It's the last lap. :) So Jiayou. :D
God is love. And often, love is all you need. :) So hold on. Keep holding on. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. :)
In life; you can either regret or rejoice. Likewise, in studies, you can either work hard or regret. :/
Life is a not a matter of milestones, but of moments. I live for these moments. They are the reasons for my existence; and the reasons why I'm still holding on. :)
Hehe last pic. :) 5000 words+ for this post. And yes, love keeps me going. And it should keep all of us going too. :)
Oh manzx. The captions look so pretty when I was typing up the post >: Sad face. :( I think the layout messed itself up when it’s posted. ._.
I’ve found myself.
1 June 2010. A new start to a new month :)
The first day of a brand new month ^^ A new beginning and lots of realisations too.
When I started today, I was afraid. Afraid that my day would turn out to be like yesterday. Like the last day of May. Yesterday was filled with emo >.< LOL. And even though I was happy for a short period of time yesterday.. I wasn’t really happy. I was pretending to. I was lost. I was confused. I was scared. I didn’t feel ready. I felt weak, powerless to stop what was in front of me. Powerless to avoid reality. Powerless to avoid the truth. And scared of being attached. And scared for my heart. And felt insecure, vulnerable, helpless.
I was scared that today would turn out like yesterday… But it didn’t. It was the opposite. In fact, the total opposite!!! :D HAHA. :D Really. Today was awesome ^^
Well, granted that I didn’t do much work… But I found myself. :D Talks with unknown people are interesting… ;D LOL! Got self-esteem boosted a bit ^^ by someone in chat -__- by A LOL. But I’m not cute, really. :D Pffffft nevermind.
Yup, and entertained by B. :D Lots of vids. Love ’em. :) ^^ And yup, moment of truth.. I was shocked and a lil’ hurt at first when uhm someone told me something. It was unexpected. But I had encouraged you to do that… So I’m glad you listened and you did ^^
Had a self-pity fest for ’round 1 min… until it got interrupted x] i love my sis. She pulled me out of my moping unconsciously LOL. :D Weird but I got over it real fast o_O This is the first time, actually. I felt free-er, lighter, and more happy. :D Like a great rock just lifted up and flew away xD
Had dinner. Let the lappy rest a while ^^ And everything was alright again. :D Actually I’m really glad that that someone told me that thing :D It freed me from … my worries, insecurity and such. x] Awesome ^^
I finally found myself today. I found that I can stay positive and be happy if I really try to. I found that I can get over things fast and not dwell on them, if I choose not to do so. :D I found that I can be myself, and that I can stay on top of the world for more than a moment.
It’s a really awesome feeling when you finally realised you are free. :D Free from that bondage. ♥♥♥ Worry, insecurity etc. Thankyou God so much for letting me discover the truth, the light and that I can be myself, and be proud of who I am.♥ And also thankyou for all the wonderful people in my life, and giving me strength and letting me discover the secret of happiness. :] And this convinces me more than ever, that everything. Everything happens for a reason. :D
Lovelovelovelovelove♥
Yours sincerely,
IMW. (belle`). The Real Me. :D ♥
Hope & Love ♥♥♥
HIIIIIIII :D Haven’t posted in a long time :D Well, at least a proper post anyway :)
The title is inspired by Jessica’s wire design :D BE HONOURED ;P LOL.
Well, I’ve no idea how to describe the past few months of Year 4. It’s like a rollercoaster, sometimes you can be on one of your good/high times, but when you’re at the low times, you can feel really down and like there’s no hope left.
Others can help you, give you instructions on how to navigate, or even accompany you on your journey, but ultimately, you’ll be at the wheel, navigating the ship yourself, walking on your own path, sailing on your own voyage, making your own mark. But there’ll still be God, standing by your side, giving you strength. ♥
Came out with this yesterday, I think. ♥ Epiphany moments :D But not so, when they tell me things I don’t really want to let go of. But think ’bout it. Friends can be at our side, accompany us throughout our lives, parents and teachers and siblings can be there to guide and help us. But sometimes, they won’t be there all the time. And we’ve just to depend on ourselves then. We are the ones that are navigating our own ship, our own life. And don’t allow people to make decisions for you, ‘cuz ultimately, you are the one who has to live with the decision, not them. (: God will always guide us though, so we can always turn to Him for help :D And He takes care of everything, and will always be with us, through both good and bad times. ;D
I’m going to illustrate something that happened to me 4 years ago ;P LOL. Well, certain people may have heard it a dozen times HAHA :X But I’m still going to type it anyway (:
I wasn’t supposed to come into DHS, much less study in DHS LOL. Was supposed to go into AHS. Sometimes, I wonder how my life would be, if I went to AHS instead of DHS. But nah, I’m already in DHS now, so no use thinking ’bout that :D My mum wanted me to appeal in, I didn’t really want to. Mind you, I wasn’t really keen on going DHS at that time :X
I was already in AHS. Bought all my books and uniform. 7 former classmates there, though not close friends. Was already going for the orientation camp before the starting of school, and it was the first day. And suddenly when I saw my bff and her mum and my mum at AHS, when I was supposed to be at camp, I was just speechless LOL. My mum and I had discussed about: DHS vs AHS, and needless to say, it didn’t go too well. And I was terrified of going to DHS at that time lol. Had not much friends there, or actually basically none at first. (There are only 3, including me, in dhs now LOL. ;P) Yup, was really shocked. But the night before, I did pray to God, to guide me to whichever school I was to go. If DHS didn’t accept me, so be it. But if DHS really accepted me, I’d just go then. :D But deep down, I was still rooting for AHS LOL, since I didn’t know DHS that well :X
Lol, and it turned out that the decision wasn’t up to me at all. God did everything and yeah, so that’s why I’m in DHS now. I’m glad to have come here though 8) If it wasn’t for coming here, I wouldn’t have met so many awesome friends and bffs <3 And be taught by so many good teachers. At the risk of sounding cliché, if I didn't come here, I won't be the person I am today. I've learnt many things in DHS, become wiser (That makes me sound old LOL :X) anddd experienced so many new experiences, if that makes any sense :D
Ooh this is a long post indeed ;D Yup, but just reflecting about how I came here, etc. It's the last year of junior high though, and the feeling is kinda mixed in a way. Don't really want this year to end :( Sigh.
Anyway have to sleep now :D
Night/morning all! (: (12:46am here)
ciaoooooooooooo~
– Isabel :D ♥
Tears.
Please don’t read this post, if you don’t want to. Just a lil’ warning ;d
I’m not perfect, and never will be. I’m just a girl who goes through pain and heartbreak, as all people do. I can laugh. I can cry. I can go high. I can feel so down, that it seems that I’m sinking lower and lower.
Pain and heartbreak lol. I guess throughout life, you will always have to feel that, in one way or another. (: Always remember that, even though people in MEDCs have a higher standard of living and quality of life, they may not be happier than those in LEDCs that have lesser. In general, I mean. ;d
I don’t like to wait. But if I find something / someone worth waiting for, I will. But sometimes, I realise that I’m either waiting for the wrong things or the wrong person. Rofl, ironic huh? ;d And I’ve wasted enough time, waiting and hoping for many things that don’t happen. I’ve done that too many times.
Mind you, it’s not gotta be easy forgetting and moving on. Almost everything remind me of you. The songs recommended, the times we talk, and the way you can cheer me up, without doing much. 8) You probably won’t ever see this post, or won’t realise that it’s actually talking about you. ;d Because you are oblivious and won’t ever realise it. Sometimes, I wonder why I care so much. But yes, I do. And it ain’t easy to try to erase all I’ve ever felt (since this emotion’s strong but foreign to me. :/) and just act normally. But I’m gotta try. I don’t know whether this is going to be better, or worse for me. But I’ll survive. I always do, I hope.
I’ve read this somewhere, just by searching randomly. But I believe God was also telling me the same thing I was trying to do. :D And I’m glad. Here it is: I’ve learned that things change and people change. It doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you’ve moved on and will treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, it just means accepting that some things just aren’t meant to be. And I know, I’ve known it all the time. ;d
I will try. I just hope all will be well. :D And I feel better LOL ;d ♥ my form of therapy. Music + Writing♥♥♥ Blogging has helped me so much. I’ve come a long way. Ohh one more thing: (One of my fb statuses btw :D) Sometimes, it’s amazing to see how I’ve come so far, in RL and MH chat etc :D And grown. Looking back makes you realise many things you didn’t know about yourself, and how much you’ve changed. ♥ :)
I’ve changed. ;d Grown. Become stronger in some ways. And I thank God for everything♥♥♥ :D
Thankyou to my bffs too :D Love y’all :D ♥♥♥ Yknow who you are. ;d
And most of all, my adopted family too. :D Kerry, Daniel, John. ♥♥♥ you all to bits. It’s amazing how we’ve come together so far. ;d
:D
ciaooooooooo~ Let everything be okay. And let me move on and forget.
Love.
On some days, you feel bright and cheery, ready to take on the world and whatever happens.
On some days, you feel down, and can’t help but delve in the memories, that now seem so far away.
The happy moments, that bring a smile to your face, unconsciously, as you reminisce.
The sad ones, which can’t help but make you cry, and twist your insides.
The painful ones, which either make you feel guilty about how it’s too late to change everything and make you wish you can turn back the clock.
Or
Make you feel so depressed and down, that you wish you can curl up into a ball on your bed, and erase everything.
The memorable, unforgettable moments, that are engraved into your mind,
the moments that you will never ever forget, in your entire life.
But memories are only in the past,
no matter how hard you think about it,
no matter how much you want to go back.
You can’t.
Things change, people change, everything inevitably changes.
But there’s always one constant in your life, no matter what happens. And it will bring you through everything you do.
That constant is love.
Love never changes. No matter whether you’re the giver, or the recipient :]
1 Corinthians 13:1-8a and 13
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails….And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
P.S. Something brought this on. And out of me. Haha :D I don’t really know what sparked this off either. Okay, maybe I know. Anyway, just some thoughts as usual. Lol -reflective mode-
When life is full of sunshine and love♥
HI again LOL :)
I love today♥ or at least up till now :D
Gorgeous sunshiny weather today though it was bordering on scorching hot♥
LOL. Ran all the way home just now. Bought matching hair accessories with my sis HAHA.
And she so kindly after that, ran off, saying that she wanted to get home fast. Then on the way, suddenly dumped her bag on poor innocent me LOL. And then ran back all the way the block, and ever so kindly, shut the lift door in my face, though I was only a few steps behind her (’cause of her bag -.-)
Ah, sisters, can’t live with ’em. But can’t live without ’em all the time♥
Lol, it’s on my tumblr also heh! :)
ciaooooooooooo~ :D ♥
Additional part: I managed to get the hang of the tune of one of my songs HAHA :D Titled ‘Goodbyes’♥
Maybe shall post it up later. :D
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虽然自己有很多话要说，但这些话可能永远说不出。 