Long overdue monthly post; November.
@8.30pm.
Hehe hiiiiiiiii :D LOL. Surprising huh >_> Considering all my emo posts below ;o but I finally finished remembering those stupid stuff! :x But then meh need to do more papers for chinese later. :)
In the midst of that stupid annoying frustrating process, my thoughts wouldn’t leave me alone. LOL. So I think I better do this, before my mood goes down again and well, it is long overdue anyway. Remember the monthly post thing? Didn’t do it for this month yet, ‘cuz of a lot of stuff. So here goes, I ish doing it now. :)
Firstly, thanking God. :) Even if the past week has been like hell. >< And well, totally down lol. But all this stuff aside, I really have to thank God lol :) For giving me everything, for protecting and making sure I’m still alive and well, for giving me the strength to hold on, despite it all. Was tempted to end everything and just leave. And for the amazing people who are there, to help, to care, and to make me cry. :x So yeah :)
To family, to my mum who although sometimes …, but yeah, she helps me with lots of stuff, makes me see sense and encourages me :) My dad, who’s there to clear up the mess with me :) And for encouraging and for the times of buying bubble tea and coffee etc and little things that cheer me up :) And my younger sis, who’s there to share everything and she always makes me smile at her funny antics, despite being annoying at times.
Also, thankyou Kath, Shak, and all the rest in that secret channel for helping :) And especially Kath. Thanks for being there for me and listening to me rant and to all my problems lol. :) <3
To MH chat peepz too :) I guess I’m fortunate to enter the chatroom on that fateful Christmas Day last year heh. :) Yup, really brought lots of joy and cheering up when I needed it. Like now hehe. :) Just to name a few, Sharma, aLtOr, lule, etc :)
To Ben, who puts up with my random ramblings and rants. :) Heh sorry too for rambling so much sometimes. And thanks for caring. :) You better not burn yourself out ah =.= Take care and stay strong. :D And jy for HCL ‘O’s! :)
To bffs, Peisze, Jess, Steph <3 Must go out soon ah. :D Bowling etc~ wheeeeeeee and kbox :) Thanks for listening sometimes too :)
To all the friends in my life and especially to the group of crazy ‘pure’ peepz in 4J, namely Xiaojun, Zijun, Shuqi :) Hehe.
Hmm I can’t really remember what else atm. :/ LOL.
OH to music too. Even playing for 20 mins on the piano keyboard makes me feel all better, even better than when listening to songs lol. And of course the guitar :) I only know like 4 notes -_- But strumming calms me down a lil’.
K think that’s almost all :)
1st Nov is actually my first anniversary of my Confirmation. Wasn’t easy. But I guess, that after Confirmation, it’s the beginning of the journey, not the end. Definitely not the end, as shown by this entire rollercoaster year. -.- Lol. But yes, I’m still here, living / surviving. I’ve no idea which (you can circle/choose one!) but the point is, I’m still holding on. Still alive. Still healthy. Still breathing. Still trying my best.
LOL omg. That sounded so …
And mmm a question to end this post, to reactivate fb or not? (P.S. I kind of really miss MH. A lot actually! Still have my dragon run to prepare for. Oops :x) And well, when to reactivate it too? Heh.
I feel better getting this out :) Even if it’s half as long as my normal monthly posts. :D Tradition, I guess. Ooh I spent half an hour on this post. -.-
Haha anw peace out :D
P.S. Comment!! (c’mon you know you want to :( even one comment will really make my night/day.) :)
Live on.
虽然自己有很多话要说，但这些话可能永远说不出。 