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Back home; closure.

@3.48am.

6 June. 2 months 5 days since I last posted. Haha it’s been a while. :) Bet no one reads this anymore. :P

Sigh, so many things have changed that I don’t really know where to start. Was scrolling through my past posts, emo as usual, certain ones reflective. Hmm I don’t know whether I’m still the same girl as I was, 2 months ago… It’s been a while, and many things happen, some beyond my expectations. One thing holds though. I’ve still grown stronger through it all, the bad moments, the sad moments.

I guess, if I came here to write a post 3 weeks ago, it’ll be really depressing plus on the verge of giving up on life. Was quite torn up during that period. Well, you can’t blame me, can you? Someone just barged into my life, destroyed/fragmented my close friendship w my confidant – my best guy friend online and poof, everything went topsy-turvy and became messed up. Because I was naive and believed you, and I wanted him to be happy again. You were the first person I couldn’t instantly forgive. It took a while, 2 weeks to forgive you. For messing everything up, for taking away the person who saved me and opened me up from June 2010. The one who broke down my walls, the one who was there when I was at one of my darkest moments, the one who helped me get through all the family drama last year.

Maybe I should thank you? I don’t know too, tbh. Sigh, I just know that the friendship between my confidant and I can never be the same again. That we are drifting away and I don’t think anything can be done about it anymore. On the brighter side, I’ve learnt how to cope on my own. To depend on myself. To stand up again, wipe away my own tears and to deal w my own troubles. Maybe it isn’t really healthy… because I’ve no one to tell everything to now. And that the week after all these happened was hell. Couldn’t control my emotions at school; I lost control quite a few times. Driven crazy from all the little triggers and memories and that huge rollercoaster Friday when I really really broke down loudly in the school toilet.

Sigh it did me good though. I’m better now, I’m slowly moving on, slowly healing. And proud to say that I’ve almost fully moved on. I still feel kind of sorry for you, I guess… You are still stuck in that vicious cycle, I tried to help… but if a person doesn’t wanna give up, the whole world can’t do anything about it.

Oops. 4.02am alrrrr. Anyway, school’s been busy. I need to get everything together soon. :/ Yup.

And I’ve to thank God for helping me get through everything. :) For sending me awesome classmates from 5C23 to get me through, friends to care even though they don’t really know what’s going on, for all the little moments, the seemingly insignificant ones that get me through life. The moments that make me realise there’s still hope out there in the big, wide world. And to think that today, whilst procrastinating and being bored plus trolling a bit on a certain website, I met a kindred soul who kind of feels the same way over certain issues. I don’t know haha, still kind of feel that that person’s God-sent, and to make me realise certain stuff I didn’t really realise before. :)

Sigh, looking at my dad sleeping on the sofa waiting up for me… I feel blessed that I’ve my family at my side :)

Mhmm, time to wake my dad up, pack my bag and sleep. 4.08am and tomorrow’s a long day. :(

<3

– belle. :)

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08/11
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On the last day of 2010; Curtain call once again. :) Thankful. ^^

@8.33pm.

I figured it would be appropriate to end the year of 2010 with a post. :) And also this post is to welcome 2011, I guess. :) I haven’t blogged frequently in a long while, and I guess I do owe it to myself and lots of people too. This post will be completely unedited and truthful lol, so don’t assume stuff etc. :x

Song atm – Shakugan No Shana – All in Good Time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnZ_5kdzxWo

Was listening to that yesterday too, while writing those cards for all my friends. :)

2010 ain’t a simple year. I thought that there won’t be much changes after 2009, but boy was I wrong. Very wrong haha. Lots of stuff happened, school-wise and in my life. Even right now at this moment, it isn’t completely peaceful and worry-free. But hey, I’m feeling rather peaceful despite the chaos at home. And I’ve survived this entire year, right? :)

Haha got to know lots of new people this year. :) Some of ’em have become really close, and everything was rather unexpected. (Shoutout to Ben here haha.) Didn’t expect you to become a close friend, ever since April this year. And I’ve gotten really close to my entire group of friends. :) More so, this year. :D

I’ve been high/hyper/laughing crazily at times this year. Lots of tears too, though not many people know. Whether I’m alone at home or sometimes in school. I’ve had a rather long crush on someone haha -.- Omg ashamed to admit it sia, but I’ve gotten over it now and I’m glad to say that :x I’ve sometimes wondered what my life is about, and the reason for my existence. But over the course of this year, I’ve understood more about myself and learnt a lot too.

To sum it all up, it has been a rollercoaster ride, a merrygoround, and smooth and rough at times. I’m disappointed with myself though… About my results. But I think I can say I did my best, because I did put in my all this year… But since it’s turned out this way, I’ve nothing more to say. I’ll just continue to work harder. I need to answer to everyone who has high hopes for me.

So much to say… but now as I type this, I don’t really know how to express all my mixed emotions into words. ._> Haha, I’m going to jump to another part now ._. And see if I can return later hahaha.

Anw, I really have to thank God for everything I have in my life. My life itself, for saving me on the 4th day of my birth, for protecting me throughout my 16 years of existence, for protecting me from being run down by cars and saving me from many close shaves with death.

For my family. For my mother, although she can be too controlling and really strict at times, not letting me go out etc, but still I guess she’s worried about me, so yup. And for listening and reassuring me when I overthink about certain stuff. For my father, for being there, for encouraging me when I’m knocked down, for buying me bubble tea and cheering me up when I’m down, for listening to me when I couldn’t find anyone else to talk to. For giving me random hugs, that just break the dam. Like now. >< For my vibrant, cheerful younger sis who put up with me despite the way I treat her sometimes. For picking up the pieces with me whenever chaos happen in the house. For telling me not to cry, whenever I start crying, ‘cuz I just feel so helpless with the way things are going sometimes. I love you all. <3 :)

For my entire group of friends+bffs. Who are so awesome and so amazing that I don’t know what I’ll do without ’em. Disappear maybe, or hide from the world. But thank you PeiSze, Jessica, Shu Qi, Xiaojun, Steph, Yenlin. Thank you for being there. :) Almost everything’s written in the card, but nope, not all I want to say. You all certainly made my school life more colourful :) Thanks for cheering me up when I’m down :D Be there to talk :) And to go crazy over random stuff haha, like Pikachu, anime, bubble tea, over school stuff, mugging O.O and just gathering all together like today ^^ And trying new stuff together hahaha. :D Though we’ll all be in separate classes/schools next year, we still must stay together and go out whenever we’re free ^^ Or go Xiaojun’s house to bake again haha! And spam pics + wade in the swimming pool!!!! :( Take care y’all :p See you guys next year :D MUST PHOTOCOPY EACH OTHER’S TIMETABLES AND COORDINATE TGT AH.

For the new people I’ve known this year, whether rather long ago, or just recently.

To Ben haha. :) Thanks for being there, knocking sense into me with your really sound advice, making me realise that it isn’t only me that have such stuff happen, for listening and for talking ’bout random stuff that cheer me up. :) You better stay happy, take care of yourself, and last long + enjoy your time tgt with that -ahem- of yours! Jy for PCME next year hahaha. I’m freeeeeeeeee from physics :D Don’t think so much too k. :)

To MH chat peepz. :) I think I can never really leave for long/take a long break from chat haha. I think I tried before, but in the end I gave up and went back. You guys are a lively, vibrant, fun and awesome bunch of peepz to talk to :D And I’m really glad I entered the chat on Christmas Day last year haha. Thanks for listening to my sorrows sometimes, and start cheering me up when I’m sad or encounter failure, like the guitar fiasco. >< And yup, lots of fun times haha. Like transforming into a drakon suddenly ._> Courtesy of drakey. Thanks Kath, Brain too for lots of stuff :) And thanks to SG chat peepz, like aLtOr (James), Epicness (Brandon), drakey (Brandon -.-) Etcccccccccccc. :D And ty sharmima, magz, keon, badger, sammie, shak, the list goes on haha. :)

To NTUC proj CIP peepz, Saumun,  Qi Zheng, Nicholas, Farhanah, Valentina, Xin Ru and my entire group of friends, etc :) I can’t remember all your names omg sorry >< T_T I’m really glad I decided to go for CIP after I recovered from that guitar incident >< Didn’t go for the first few days, ‘cuz I was still upset oops haha. :x But CIP turned out really fun :) And I found myself looking forward to it each day haha. Crazy wagon-pushing ^^ Re-arranging of books, guiding the parents with their booklists, and omg the carrying of the heavy boxes ._. And the taking of quite a lot of pictures at the end haha :D Glad that we all still have those pics as memories :) Haha, eh PeiSze, Jess, Shuqi, Yenlin, Steph, lets go again next year to help. :}

Omg -.- Exceed 1k words le. >_> I doubt anyone will read this. Or rather complete reading this -.- Nvm, this is for me :D Haha. Actually I think I’m done. Almost, anyway.

Thanking God for the little things in life :) For the everyday happenings and the not so significant stuff that happens, but which still give me strength and hope to carry on :D Anime <3 最近才开始爱上了它！Bubble tea, baking cookies + cake, laughing over random stuff, etc. If I continue, I think this post will never end. :p

Yup, to sum it all up again :p Glad yet sad that 2010 is over. :) Apprehensive + scared, yet kind of excited for JC. -.- Though I think I’m freaking terrified for the starting of school, to be really honest. ._. But still, hope 2011 will be okay and go smoothly haha. :D

Life is simple, I guess. Nothing matters as long as you are happy, and the people around you + the people who you love and care about are healthy and happy too. :)

I’m grateful and I’m blessed. I guess, that’s all I’ve to say hehe. :D

K if you even reach this part right… I commend you. :O So thanks for reading <3 Hope everyone is well and happy + ready for 2011. :)

♥

P.S. Right. 1370 words and still counting. This post took exactly 1 hour. I’m a bit amazed. o.o

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Content; Merry Christmas Eve.

@3.50pm.

I LOVE LIFE. THAT’S WHY THIS POST IS IN CAPS.

HAHA I WANT TO DO A POST LEH. BUT LAZY SIA. GG. :(

NVMMMMMM. JUST WANNA SAY I’M FEELING HAPPY AND CONTENT NOW :’) PeiSze and Jess on msn <3 MH chat peepz :p <3

And catches in MH (Y) Haha. :D Yea, plus listening to Greyson Chance’s “Waiting outside the lines”. His voice is lovely. :) Love it.

Oh and my worries in MH is kind of gone :P I mean the worry about needing gold for the Double Diamond Toboggan Adventure. :p Hehe. Ken’s going to help meeeeeeee :D Hehe yay ^-^ Thanks so much, Ken. :)

:D K end of this ranting post :p at least I posted after so long hahaha.

Merry Christmas Eve, everyone!!!! :D <3 Stay safe, happy and healthy. :)

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12/24
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Pass the smiles around, darlings.

@9.44pm.

SHOCK. TIO SHOCK HAHAHA. WHAT’S THE WORLD COMING TO? NANANANA.

I THINK I’M HIGH. OR WENT INSANE DUE TO ANXIETY. PROBABLY BOTH. WHOOOOOOOOOO. :D

GOTTA SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP SOON. FOR ONCE. EARLY RIGHT HAHAHA. HOPE I DO WELL TMRW PLZ PLZ.MEET MINE AND MY MUM’S EXPECTATIONS. :x

NANANANA.

*floats down* Yknow, whenever you are sad / down / pissed / annoyed / feel like castrating someone / feel like the world’s gotta end, you’ve just got to try to make others smile. :) And when you start smiling, and then the rest return your smile, you feel like you’re invincible, floating on top of the world and so so so satisfied and happy. :)

If that makes sense, and whoever reads this understands, then good for you. :) If you don’t, try again to understand. You’ll understand one day if you try. And trust me, this ain’t the first time I tried.

Goodluck for HCL ‘O’s tmrw! Last exam, and then go wild wild wild~ :)

Love. <3

Peace out. :D

/edit @10.45pm.

Blah. Not asleep yet -.- LOL. 11pm then lor. :( Rah rah rahhhhhh.

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11/09
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Long overdue monthly post; November.

@8.30pm.

Hehe hiiiiiiiii :D LOL. Surprising huh >_> Considering all my emo posts below ;o but I finally finished remembering those stupid stuff! :x But then meh need to do more papers for chinese later. :)

In the midst of that stupid annoying frustrating process, my thoughts wouldn’t leave me alone. LOL. So I think I better do this, before my mood goes down again and well, it is long overdue anyway. Remember the monthly post thing? Didn’t do it for this month yet, ‘cuz of a lot of stuff. So here goes, I ish doing it now. :)

Firstly, thanking God. :) Even if the past week has been like hell. >< And well, totally down lol. But all this stuff aside, I really have to thank God lol :) For giving me everything, for protecting and making sure I’m still alive and well, for giving me the strength to hold on, despite it all. Was tempted to end everything and just leave. And for the amazing people who are there, to help, to care, and to make me cry. :x So yeah :)

To family, to my mum who although sometimes …, but yeah, she helps me with lots of stuff, makes me see sense and encourages me :) My dad, who’s there to clear up the mess with me :) And for encouraging and for the times of buying bubble tea and coffee etc and little things that cheer me up :) And my younger sis, who’s there to share everything and she always makes me smile at her funny antics, despite being annoying at times.

Also, thankyou Kath, Shak, and all the rest in that secret channel for helping :) And especially Kath. Thanks for being there for me and listening to me rant and to all my problems lol. :) <3

To MH chat peepz too :) I guess I’m fortunate to enter the chatroom on that fateful Christmas Day last year heh. :) Yup, really brought lots of joy and cheering up when I needed it. Like now hehe. :) Just to name a few, Sharma, aLtOr, lule, etc :)

To Ben, who puts up with my random ramblings and rants. :) Heh sorry too for rambling so much sometimes. And thanks for caring. :) You better not burn yourself out ah =.= Take care and stay strong. :D And jy for HCL ‘O’s! :)

To bffs, Peisze, Jess, Steph <3 Must go out soon ah. :D Bowling etc~ wheeeeeeee and kbox :) Thanks for listening sometimes too :)

To all the friends in my life and especially to the group of crazy ‘pure’ peepz in 4J, namely Xiaojun, Zijun, Shuqi :) Hehe.

Hmm I can’t really remember what else atm. :/ LOL.

OH to music too. Even playing for 20 mins on the piano keyboard makes me feel all better, even better than when listening to songs lol. And of course the guitar :) I only know like 4 notes -_- But strumming calms me down a lil’.

K think that’s almost all :)

1st Nov is actually my first anniversary of my Confirmation. Wasn’t easy. But I guess, that after Confirmation, it’s the beginning of the journey, not the end. Definitely not the end, as shown by this entire rollercoaster year. -.- Lol. But yes, I’m still here, living / surviving. I’ve no idea which (you can circle/choose one!) but the point is, I’m still holding on. Still alive. Still healthy. Still breathing. Still trying my best.

LOL omg. That sounded so …

And mmm a question to end this post, to reactivate fb or not? (P.S. I kind of really miss MH. A lot actually! Still have my dragon run to prepare for. Oops :x) And well, when to reactivate it too? Heh.

I feel better getting this out :) Even if it’s half as long as my normal monthly posts. :D Tradition, I guess. Ooh I spent half an hour on this post. -.-

Haha anw peace out :D

P.S. Comment!! (c’mon you know you want to :( even one comment will really make my night/day.) :)

Live on.

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11/08
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Happiness; life ain’t perfect, but today has pretty much come darn close to it. :) Tuition; camwhoring; ice kacang; talks; ghosts and whatnot :D ♥

@10.03pm.

Hehe haiiiiiii ^^ :D

Must be surprising huh. :) ‘Cuz I rarely have such high and happy moments. :D So I’m abandoning my chinese RGS paper for now and typing this out :x Just hope I don’t crash down later again. :)

I made my subject combination choice alr. My own choice. :) And my parents are pretty okay with it. So everyone’s happy hehe. :D

Yupz. :) Couldn’t go with tuition peepz to get Ms Ho’s prezzie today. :( But yeah, I woke up around 9.30, so it was prolly too late to travel all the way to bukit batok. Need around 1 and a half hours to get there. :/

Wait, side note here: Yknow its kind of shocking that people actually read this >< :/ Damn. :( LOL.

K back to today. :) Today’s tuition was fun ^^ :D I’ll miss Ms Ho’s teachings. :( She’s a really really good and patient teacher and her lessons are uber fun and entertaining plus enriching. <3 Lol, and we received like uh… (let me go count…) OMG 19 papers o.o Woah. :o Didn’t know there were that many. >< Lalaaaaa JC is gotta be fun. :x Yup, but anw guess I’m glad to be staying on at bukit gombak then, and not be moving to jurong east heh. :) I’ve grown close to my tuition mates, although we don’t talk much. :)

Last day of school was awesome. :D Change of plans and a lil’ miscommunication but things turned out fine. Camwhored a lot ^^ Evidence from my profile pic and the dramatic increase of photos from 62 to almost a 100. HAHA. (Y) :D Credits to yenlin, her cam and her editing skills :) And to Peisze, Jess, Yenlin for being  there to camwhore and do stuff tgt. :)

Hehe ice kachang ftw :) <3 It makes me a happy girl. <: C:

Talks with someone over msn about subject combinations, results and all that stuff opened my mind more, I guess. :) Follow your heart, peepz, follow your heart. :) Thanks Ben. :]

And hehe oh one more thing, thanks for the game too LOL. The ghost game :D I KILLED 6 PEOPLE. :D LOL. :x :( In the game, I meant! And rather fun to see those peepz screaming their lungs out :o Oopsss. HAHA. I’m gotta play again laterrrrrrrrr. ADDICTED OMG >_> Provided that my parents don’t look at the lappy screen (lappy’s in the living room bleh.) :( DANGEROUS.

Hmm I think I need to do a post marking the end of junior high >< Forgot… ._. -thinks- Later bah. If I’ve time :x

Btw I think my fb dp is :D :D HAHA. FLYING / HOVERING (Y) And Jess and Peisze look so cute in their couple pic omg <3 <3 Love ttm. :D

Thanks Steph too :D For your words. :) <3 Jiayou for everything :D

Ooh 444 words! -.- K ending this now. :)

I’m still debating what cca to take -_- GG. :( I hate the short deadlines bleh.

Last but not least, thankyou God for everything. :) For helping everything to go smoothly and for giving me so many amazing people in my life. <3 Can’t ever live without ’em, me thinks. :D <3 ♥ Y’all really mean a lot to me. So jiayou and take care k. :]

Au revoir :D

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10/30
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Life is Beautiful;

@7pm.

Lol. Hi. I better post what happened today before I psych myself out totally, get too lazy to type out everything or make myself emo from all the songs I’m hearing. :o

Caramelldansen ftw ^^ ;) Hehe. K feeling better. :D

Mhmm where to start? Okay first the talk ’bout H2 and H3 CLL. Totally bored the hell out of me, no offense. >< I was wishing that it would be over soon heh.

Then 1 hour break. :D And then the movie ^^ I was quite disappointed when I went to search the plotline for ‘Amadeus’, which was supposed to be screened today. LOL couldn’t resist :X And yea it was about Mozart. :/ And I thought it was going to be uh, disappointing? But I was looking forward to it nonetheless. :)

But to my surprise, they screened ‘Life is Beautiful’ today. :D :) Awesome movie, that’s all I can say. Be prepared for excessive raving ahead :D Hehe. Wait, I’ll get the link for the plotline first. :) Oh wait, y’all can go find yourself HAHA. I’ll just write what happened in the movie, through my eyes. :)

I was laughing and tearing throughout the entire movie, and just fyi, it’s not an easy feat for a movie to make me feel like laughing and crying non-stop throughout the entire movie hahaha. Thank goodness for the darkness. :)

Main characters are Guido, I’m in love with him HAHA. Then Dora, the lady, whom he was chasing. Super funny ^^ Then they had a son, Joshua. But then later the Germans came. :/ To cut the entire story short, Guido and Joshua were being sent to the camps, ‘cuz they were Jewish. Dora was italian, but she pleaded with one of the soldiers to let her board the train that would bring them to the camp. At this part, I started tearing LOL. *hides* But yeah. :/

Xiaojun was like asking me why Dora so dumb, can stay safely at home, but yet still went to the camp and stir up more nuisance when Guido had to go and find her to rescue her, and then he died in the process. :/

To me, it was simple though. Look at Dora. She and Guido loves each other so much and she loves her son so much too. Obviously, she won’t bear to stay safe, while her husband and her son were being carted to the concentration camp right!? Wth, worrying her heart out whether they’ll survive and then she may not even see them again. ._. Obviously, she will want to be with her husband and son, no matter how horrid or deadly the conditions are. At least, she may be able to catch a last glimpse of them and that’s enough for her. :) And to be with Guido in trouble, till death do them part.

YKNOW WHAT? I THINK I THINK TOO MUCH HAHA. But can’t blame me. :) Just love ’em.

The first part was horrifically funny, I think a lot of people in the audi got a lil’ shocked at my loud laughter OOPS. Thankfully, it’s dark, so no one will know its me teehee. ^^ The most epic part in the first part of the movie is when Guido rode a horse in to ‘rescue’ Dora, from her engagement which she didn’t want to be in. EPIC. HAHA. The guy that Dora was engaged to, is so lag. (Y) He was like frozen in shock when he saw Dora step on the table and mount the horse lmao. And the egg fell on him and then ta-da moment of realisation for him, srsly lag HAHA :D

GO WATCH THE MOVIE. IT’S WORTH WATCHING, AND WORTH EVERY SECOND OF YOUR TIME. IT’S AWESOMEZ <3 :) Hahaha I sound like promoting the movie or sth. :o

Yup. :) Better not elaborate so much or this post will exceed 1k words and no thanks, I don’t want that. I don’t mind watching the movie again!!! Seriously lovely <3 *sighs dreamily* :D

HAHA end raving. ^^

After that, went to Parkway with Peisze, Jess, Steph, Shuqi and Xiaojun. To check schedules for Aspen tuition LOL. Then Steph had to go home. :/ The rest of us went to eat lunch at Swensen’s. :) Hadn’t had their baked rice for like 2 years plus heh. Missed it ttm. :) Thank goodness for 1 for 1 student set or sth. :) Well, burned another huge hole in my pocket but heh. :X And oh Mummy gave me my pocket money lol. I thought she wouldn’t after she said that… :X Thank God. :)

Went to Tamp library after that with Peisze. Read two books and did some chinese. :)

Tmrw’s bowling. HAHA gotta be epic fail. Last bowled in P4 during the Bangkok trip LOL. I hope the ball doesn’t roll into the gutter that often ><

From wed onwards, it’s all CHINESE lessons. *groans* :( Oh well, HCL O levels!!! What can I say? :/

Woah, it’s almost 900 words alr. Better end this. Seems that I can’t stop typing once I get into the typing mood heh.

I’m still debating whether to … :/ Better not say it here. ._. Ugh. Hmm. I’ll see.

Anw, hope this long, nice post is enough ^^ Haven’t posted that long posts nowadays. :)

Ciao. ^^

2010
10/18
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14 Oct.

@11.06pm.

Thank God. :) Haha. Mood swings ftw ._. For the last post. -.- I’ve a feeling it’s PMS omg == And it’s probable too blah. HAHA. Ice kachang saved my life. LOL randomest things ever. But <3 <3 :D

Still listening to Westlife – My Love. Wondering when I’ll get tired of it. :o It’s been since Sunday. o.o So around 4 days alr heh.

HI SHUQI if you read this -.- Stalker. -.-

Hmm. Sigh. Tomorrow decides my fate. :( I’m scared heh. Well, who wouldn’t be ._. And sometimes I do feel really inferior, but I guess it’s normal for me to feel that way. I’ve felt that way lots of times since I came to DHS. It’s a fact of life, I guess. It’s just like you see the people around you getting so high… but then your marks are like considered nothing, as compared to them. Fine, they always say we shouldn’t compare. But who wouldn’t compare?? I think humans will still compare some stuff, no matter what happens. :/

The dam burst open today. But when I reached home. So it’s alright. It’s a relief, to be honest. I think I bottled up everything yesterday, and hence felt “numb” LOL. I’m glad I passed geog. I guess I’ve to thank Mr Lee, ‘cuz he marked the LORMs part. And my essays saved me lol. Never scored so high before for essays. DRQ was horrible, failed horribly. :X But essays 12/15 and 11/15 respectively heh. :) Did qn 3 and 5. :)

Chem was uhm. okay I guess? But just disappointed in myself, though I did improve. :/ Sigh. So close everytime, and yet so far.

Yknow in the morning, I was walking to class when I flipped open my phone and saw your message. It was quite a surprise lol. Thank goodness I reached class when I finished reading the sms. I actually cried in class, and thankfully, no one was in class yet lol. >< Hmm. Thanks for that sms, I guess, I needed it, needed a release for those bottled up tears too. :)

Thanks Xiaojun too. I was randomly scrolling through my notes part, and saw what you wrote in one of my notes lol. Didn’t realise what you did when I gave you my phone last time. :o Thanks too hehe. :)

Yeah, God gives me amazing people to encourage you and be with me through it all, through both the dark and happy moments in my life. And for that, I thank you, God. :)

They say the beat of a butterflies’ wings can set off a storm in the world away. What if the ride in the smallest things can power the strongest hurricane? What if it all begins inside? We hold the key to turn the tide. Just a pebble in the water, can set the sea in motion. A simple act of kindness can stir the widest ocean. If we show a little love, heaven knows what we could change. –Make A Wave by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas.

Hehe. That song’s playing now. :)

I’m prolly going to complete one more zong he tian kong LOL. I haven’t done anything ever since I reached home. -.- ._. Fail. Dreading tmrw. :/ God, please help me to get the results I’m hoping for and praying for. Please. ><

Let everything be okay.

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10/14
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Unexpected;

@8.51pm.

I’ve got to write all these down before my mood changes heh.

Yknow sometimes certain stuff you expect to happen, or reactions that you thought you’d hear and brace for, don’t happen. And the lack of all these just shocks the hell out of you. Yeah haha. that’s happening to me right now.

My mum didn’t scold me or anything. :o We had a long talk while I was waiting for Dad to pick me up from Tamp MRT just now. Lol. Life’s weird.

I’ve learnt not to expect results. Today’s results were unexpected too. Ironic in fact.

And I’ve to thank God for helping me get through the first day. :)

And lovely people in my life like PeiSze, Shuqi, Zijun, Shihui, Steph. And Ben. :)

Love you guys. Don’t know what I’ll do without y’all.

Probably cry my heart out? Heh. But I haven’t cried yet, idk wht that’s good or bad.

I’ll take it as good for now. :)

Bai. Hope tmrw will be better…

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Shattered;

@11.21pm.

Lol. Everything in its time, I guess. :) I don’t want to blog ’bout it here… It’s better now and I don’t want to look back at all the shattered glass pieces when I came home. Sigh.

You helped me again, though I don’t think you’ll know lol. Irony huh. Heh. Music helped too, and of course singing helped too hmm. I guess I’m glad to have met you… ‘cuz I don’t think I’ll find a friend that’s willing to hear all this stuff and not be so shocked at what happens sometimes. And also for being so different.. and confusing + worrying the hell out of me at times. Hmm. :o

Heh. Surprisingly, my mum asked me to play some music out loud too hmm. Playing My Love by Westlife now hehe ^^ :) I love that song.

To hold you in my arms, to promise you my love. To tell you from the heart. You’re all I’m thinking of~ ♫♪

Reaching for the love that seems so far~ :)

Oh well. One step at a time. I’ll see where life leads me and where God brings me to.

Tmrw = staying home for the entire day… ._. Wth am I gotta do. :( LOL. ._>

Bai.

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