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Long overdue monthly post; November.

@8.30pm.

Hehe hiiiiiiiii :D LOL. Surprising huh >_> Considering all my emo posts below ;o but I finally finished remembering those stupid stuff! :x But then meh need to do more papers for chinese later. :)

In the midst of that stupid annoying frustrating process, my thoughts wouldn’t leave me alone. LOL. So I think I better do this, before my mood goes down again and well, it is long overdue anyway. Remember the monthly post thing? Didn’t do it for this month yet, ‘cuz of a lot of stuff. So here goes, I ish doing it now. :)

Firstly, thanking God. :) Even if the past week has been like hell. >< And well, totally down lol. But all this stuff aside, I really have to thank God lol :) For giving me everything, for protecting and making sure I’m still alive and well, for giving me the strength to hold on, despite it all. Was tempted to end everything and just leave. And for the amazing people who are there, to help, to care, and to make me cry. :x So yeah :)

To family, to my mum who although sometimes …, but yeah, she helps me with lots of stuff, makes me see sense and encourages me :) My dad, who’s there to clear up the mess with me :) And for encouraging and for the times of buying bubble tea and coffee etc and little things that cheer me up :) And my younger sis, who’s there to share everything and she always makes me smile at her funny antics, despite being annoying at times.

Also, thankyou Kath, Shak, and all the rest in that secret channel for helping :) And especially Kath. Thanks for being there for me and listening to me rant and to all my problems lol. :) <3

To MH chat peepz too :) I guess I’m fortunate to enter the chatroom on that fateful Christmas Day last year heh. :) Yup, really brought lots of joy and cheering up when I needed it. Like now hehe. :) Just to name a few, Sharma, aLtOr, lule, etc :)

To Ben, who puts up with my random ramblings and rants. :) Heh sorry too for rambling so much sometimes. And thanks for caring. :) You better not burn yourself out ah =.= Take care and stay strong. :D And jy for HCL ‘O’s! :)

To bffs, Peisze, Jess, Steph <3 Must go out soon ah. :D Bowling etc~ wheeeeeeee and kbox :) Thanks for listening sometimes too :)

To all the friends in my life and especially to the group of crazy ‘pure’ peepz in 4J, namely Xiaojun, Zijun, Shuqi :) Hehe.

Hmm I can’t really remember what else atm. :/ LOL.

OH to music too. Even playing for 20 mins on the piano keyboard makes me feel all better, even better than when listening to songs lol. And of course the guitar :) I only know like 4 notes -_- But strumming calms me down a lil’.

K think that’s almost all :)

1st Nov is actually my first anniversary of my Confirmation. Wasn’t easy. But I guess, that after Confirmation, it’s the beginning of the journey, not the end. Definitely not the end, as shown by this entire rollercoaster year. -.- Lol. But yes, I’m still here, living / surviving. I’ve no idea which (you can circle/choose one!) but the point is, I’m still holding on. Still alive. Still healthy. Still breathing. Still trying my best.

LOL omg. That sounded so …

And mmm a question to end this post, to reactivate fb or not? (P.S. I kind of really miss MH. A lot actually! Still have my dragon run to prepare for. Oops :x) And well, when to reactivate it too? Heh.

I feel better getting this out :) Even if it’s half as long as my normal monthly posts. :D Tradition, I guess. Ooh I spent half an hour on this post. -.-

Haha anw peace out :D

P.S. Comment!! (c’mon you know you want to :( even one comment will really make my night/day.) :)

Live on.

Happiness; life ain’t perfect, but today has pretty much come darn close to it. :) Tuition; camwhoring; ice kacang; talks; ghosts and whatnot :D ♥

@10.03pm.

Hehe haiiiiiii ^^ :D

Must be surprising huh. :) ‘Cuz I rarely have such high and happy moments. :D So I’m abandoning my chinese RGS paper for now and typing this out :x Just hope I don’t crash down later again. :)

I made my subject combination choice alr. My own choice. :) And my parents are pretty okay with it. So everyone’s happy hehe. :D

Yupz. :) Couldn’t go with tuition peepz to get Ms Ho’s prezzie today. :( But yeah, I woke up around 9.30, so it was prolly too late to travel all the way to bukit batok. Need around 1 and a half hours to get there. :/

Wait, side note here: Yknow its kind of shocking that people actually read this >< :/ Damn. :( LOL.

K back to today. :) Today’s tuition was fun ^^ :D I’ll miss Ms Ho’s teachings. :( She’s a really really good and patient teacher and her lessons are uber fun and entertaining plus enriching. <3 Lol, and we received like uh… (let me go count…) OMG 19 papers o.o Woah. :o Didn’t know there were that many. >< Lalaaaaa JC is gotta be fun. :x Yup, but anw guess I’m glad to be staying on at bukit gombak then, and not be moving to jurong east heh. :) I’ve grown close to my tuition mates, although we don’t talk much. :)

Last day of school was awesome. :D Change of plans and a lil’ miscommunication but things turned out fine. Camwhored a lot ^^ Evidence from my profile pic and the dramatic increase of photos from 62 to almost a 100. HAHA. (Y) :D Credits to yenlin, her cam and her editing skills :) And to Peisze, Jess, Yenlin for being  there to camwhore and do stuff tgt. :)

Hehe ice kachang ftw :) <3 It makes me a happy girl. <: C:

Talks with someone over msn about subject combinations, results and all that stuff opened my mind more, I guess. :) Follow your heart, peepz, follow your heart. :) Thanks Ben. :]

And hehe oh one more thing, thanks for the game too LOL. The ghost game :D I KILLED 6 PEOPLE. :D LOL. :x :( In the game, I meant! And rather fun to see those peepz screaming their lungs out :o Oopsss. HAHA. I’m gotta play again laterrrrrrrrr. ADDICTED OMG >_> Provided that my parents don’t look at the lappy screen (lappy’s in the living room bleh.) :( DANGEROUS.

Hmm I think I need to do a post marking the end of junior high >< Forgot… ._. -thinks- Later bah. If I’ve time :x

Btw I think my fb dp is :D :D HAHA. FLYING / HOVERING (Y) And Jess and Peisze look so cute in their couple pic omg <3 <3 Love ttm. :D

Thanks Steph too :D For your words. :) <3 Jiayou for everything :D

Ooh 444 words! -.- K ending this now. :)

I’m still debating what cca to take -_- GG. :( I hate the short deadlines bleh.

Last but not least, thankyou God for everything. :) For helping everything to go smoothly and for giving me so many amazing people in my life. <3 Can’t ever live without ’em, me thinks. :D <3 ♥ Y’all really mean a lot to me. So jiayou and take care k. :]

Au revoir :D

August.♥

Hai. (: Tradition to do a start of the month post everytime, so here I am again.

I’m trying hard not to cry… Blame it on the song I’m listening .______.’ Haven’t listened to it for so long. Angels brought me here – Guy Sebastian (Y) Awesomest song ever <3

Sigh. The month of July… I guess it passed too fast, as all months do. Closer and closer to EOYs and closer to the end of junior high. Funny how time flies. I still can remember… when I was Year 1 and coming to DHS. College, then uni, then work. Sad thing is, I don’t wanna grow up so fast. :/

Oh wellz. What am I supposed to be talking about ._.’ Ah. About the month of July >< I can’t remember much tbh. >< It was just one week after one week of school and tests. :/ Owait, not really.

Thankyou God♥♥, for helping me through everything as always. (: I don’t have to elaborate.

Thankyou to 4J, to all those who helped me and comforted me when I was down (: And also shuqi, xiaojun, zijun, shihui for being an awesome bunch :D

Thankyou bffs <3 I don’t know what I’ll do without y’all :(
Dajie, Jess <3 and Erjie, Peisze :D ♥

Thankyou Mum, Dad, Annabel. ♥ Sigh, please help everything be okay soon.

Thankyou Ben, for keeping me somewhat sane o_o And for helping me with homework heh. :] x] Though I doubt you’ll see this but yup (:

Thankyou to whoever who invented bubble tea. AND KOI ♥ Lol. One of the simple pleasures in life these days.

Thankyou everyone who has helped me in one way or another (:

Thankyou Jer, Nic too (:

Thankyou to all those who treated me as an emotional trashcan too. (: I guess… it has kind of made me more patient? o.o Idk. LOL.

And thanks life too (Y) Though you were really really hard to get through at times, and I’ve lost count of the number of times I wanted to give up. Still. I guess I’ve.. mmm.

As I said before,

“Often the hardest times are the most memorable times. And the times where you realise who your true friends are and how strong you can be. And you’ll grow and learn from it. :) Learn how to be strong in the face of adversity. Realise which are the ones always by your side.” :D

Heh yeah. (: One more thing:

“Walls. Facades. Built around themselves. Not to let anyone know their secrets. But not everyone uses them to keep people out. Sometimes the purpose of building those walls may be just to find the one who’s willing to spend the time getting through them.”

Mmm. ^ xP It’s really true though…

Really looking forward to church tmrw. Finally. (:

And for August. 19 days after today -coughs- is -coughsomeone’sbirthdaycoughs- don’t forget (:

I didn’t say anything 8D *innocent angelic smile*

Hope August will be better and don’t pass so fast. EOYs are fast approaching and I’m definitely not ready for them.

ciaoooooo~ (:

P.S. After I edited and read it again o_o I realised that it’s 500+ words ;O Heh. And the most amt of tags in this post :X

@1 August 2010, 1.30AM.

Sleepy ramblings.

Hai. Too tired to talk. So I’m typing. Duh. So hi.

Lol. I’m making no sense O_O I just replied my mum’s question… and it came out in an unintelligible murmur or mutter or whatever o_o

Lalala. I love you, school.  I love you, homework.

Seriously. I just want one day to sleeeeeep. Too bad that’ll never happen. Mood finally crashing down. Heh expected it, but it’s not as bad as I expected, which is kind of good in a way. Sleeping soon. At least tmrw’s  a short day. 4 hours of lessons + recess. (Y) Don’t want homeworkkk.

Need to save $30 out of $47. Rather impossible feat, now that I’m thinking ’bout it. Heh maybe $25 would do.  Lets see.

Genotype is the genetic make-up of an organism while phenotype is the observable characteristics of an organism. Gene locus is the position of a gene on a chromosome. <——- Seriously. Do we need to know all of this? Are they all going to be used when they grow up in our daily activities? -.-‘

Ah whatever. Not making sense. It may not be true. But sometimes, certain stuff we learn in school ain’t going to used… or maybe they will. Who knows.

Lol. This post is titled ‘Ramblings’, ‘cuz I’m half trying to figure out homework and half rambling at different times. Will be posted up when I’m about to sleep.

OH post ’bout msn convo!!! Must remember if I’ve time.

12.46am.
Thankful to God for giving me strength to carry on♥ Through amazing ways and wonderful people. God’s great♥ :D

Thankful to bffs aka dajie and erjie, jess and peisze♥, twitter peepz, friends, random fb comments + statuses, Ben. Without all of you,  我早就崩溃了。Lol. Grazie :D

Heh I think I tmrw go school, then do bah. Now I’m like half unconscious already. Not even making sense of the questions. Packing bag~

Omg. Chem, physics, math, geog. TMRW HAVE CHEM. Get back atmosphere test. GG. ._.’

Ah whatever. What’s done is done… Even if I want to change it, I can’t change it already. Nananana, and oh if my angel reads this, thankyou so much for the spongebob pen! (: Love it ttm :D <3

o.o 12.59am. Lol. Ta-da 1am.

1.06am. Exhausted. Time to sleep. I think when I look back on this seemingly incoherent post tmrw, I’ll blush with shame and feel tempted to delete it or sth. But I won’t >< Heh sleepy ramblings.

ciao~ Night. (:

The lonely wolf howled into the darkness,
the silence of the night.
But unexpectedly, another heart-wrenching howl was its reply..
Coming from the direction of the moon and stars.

You’re not alone. No one ever is.