自己对生活的感想

@10.30pm.

I’m sick of it. Sick of getting trampled over and teased to no end now as I look back on today and yesterday. I don’t know why my brain suddenly chose to rewind to those moments too. But there must be a reason for that.

Don’t know whether all these are affecting me more than I let on. But let me caution those people. I know y’all think its funny/fun/amusing to imitate whatever I do consciously or unconsciously most of the time, but I’m sick of it.

I’m ashamed to say that I almost cried when 5C23 peeps were laughing @ me during lunch on Mon. But I was in an unstable condition right then, because of what happened on Sunday night. So maybe my emotions were haywire and out of control.

But no, if that happens again, I won’t give people the satisfaction of seeing me crying over such a minor thing or getting angry, and then getting laughed at more. Watch it people, I’ve limits too. It’s just that y’all haven’t seen my completely lose-my-entire-control side, because I dare to say that I’ve never ever lost complete control over myself in front of people outside. ‘Cept my family, especially my mum, when I can’t take everything anymore.

So yea, watch your back. :) And be careful. I can’t say when an explosion may suddenly happen -shrugs- :}

LOL I sound totally vengeful here ._. Guess life’s getting to me. And everything too.

Whatever manzx. I’ll do anything I want to y’all, if this continues. You guys won’t see this post anw. ^^

K bye.

I need hope.

And ideas.

@2.09pm.

You can classify this as a rant, so no reading plz.

I know my class is considered ‘not-that-good’ in terms of results.

And we get tossed away like we mean nothing sometimes. E.g. Teachers that don’t bother to go through the extra practice questions but instead fast-forward to the other topics first. Interns for our GP class; and we don’t even have a permanent GP teacher, ffs. And an econs teacher that explains all the not-so-important stuff and speeds through the important stuff. Granted, the rest of the subjects are okay.

But that’s life, I guess? And the way of society in the future too.

Life has dealt me this hand. So I’ve to accept it and carry on the best way I can.

I don’t believe I can’t.

And Shu Qi, quick send the stuff please. Even if you won’t see this. ._.

@1.04am.

I have no words to say. Nope, actually I’ve too much words to say. And some words are not that kind either. Nor appropriate. You can count ’em vulgar/foul if you want to.

But nah, what’s the use of saying those? I wouldn’t want to taint myself now, nor lower myself to your level. Seriously?

Oh one more thing, stop beating me on the head alr. Enough of my brain cells have died from all the constant lessons and mind-boggling stuff.

And yknow, you shouldn’t expect, nor care so much. Since grades mean so much to you and apparently we two don’t mean anything. So tired of all the drama and fuss kicked up over grades.

If there ever comes a day when you finally wake up and realise, everything will be much too late by then. Mark my words.

You just don’t appreciate what you have now, or rather you seem to not have the ability to appreciate at all.

That’s all I’ve to say. I’m remarkably calm, I’ve no idea why too. But being calm is not a good thing. It’ll just mean the flood of emotions will come later.