Second post :D And already quite a depressing one O: Sigh. HAHA. ;( Reflective mood ._. This is a little excerpt from my diary. O: LOL.
Day in, day out. Studying or school or just yeah. mundane stuff. Ever wonder about next time? People talk about growing up, wishing they could fast-forward to university life and grow up, go to work etc. Is it not normal to feel the same? I don’t want to grow up. What’s the use after all these studying and school?
I don’t even know what I’m gotta do after school. What am I going to work as? How will my life be when I grow up? I’m not sure how I’m gotta face that :(
Sigh. I don’t know. I’m just really tired about all this. Normally, I’m all excited and happy that it’s finally Friday and that it’s the weekends. But not today. I’m not sure what the reasons are. But…
I feel different. A little sad and pessimistic probably. Sometimes, I wish I could stay the happy, ignorant girl in primary school or kindergarten. Life seemed so much easier back then. Sometimes, we want to rewind the clock, don’t we?
But it’s impossible. Life still goes on. Each second still ticks by.
While we are here wondering about our lives and being unsatisfied with it, people in third-world countries are wondering where their next meal are going to come from. Or fighting for their lives. Thirsting for clean drinking water, food, love. And perhaps wondering why their lives are so different.
Sometimes I wonder. The change brought about in this world. Is it for good or for worse? No matter what some people have sometimes, they don’t cherish it. They will never understand why things are this way. Unless. They experience it first-hand.
Recently talked to my overseas bff. He said this “Seasons change, generations change. But people don’t ever change”.
I told him that people do change, even deep down. It’s kind of true, isn’t it? Hmm. Well, maybe people do not change that much deep down, but how are we to see what’s beyond the surface? (unless you have mind-reading abilities HAHA).
Wow, this entry is really really long O: Sigh. It’s too much. Just been holding it in for far too long D: Oh well.
Sometimes people change without realising it. Unconsciously. But then we often do not realise that unless others point it out. I have no absolute idea why I’m being like that in the morning now. Maybe just some stuff. Don’t care to elaborate.
Should i share this? Maybe. Okay, maybe I will.
Hmm. One last thing. I wonder if the people around me do wear masks or facades? I don’t really know. Sometimes, people do, in order to lock their despair inside. They just pretend nothing is wrong, just act as normal as they can, and then break down or become a totally different person when they are alone.
Just maybe.
Done. Do comment ._. Sorry for the emo-ness of this post. Blame my pensive mood and tired-ness for this whole bunch of stuff O:
ciaooooo :D
虽然自己有很多话要说，但这些话可能永远说不出。 